Im just another soul brother whos been hurt by another soul, brother, i think about her while im lying in the covers, and eating and breathin and sleeping and being and working and playing and writing and painting, while im seeing, others. I like to set intentions to be in the moment, but you know expectations bring disappointment when its going wrong, why's this lesson take so long, i see the blessing in it trying to keep my faith so long, fake this face so long, fuck i aint this strong, feeling swept up in the darkness never breaking dawn, if only i had acted in that moment like my actions plainly showing my intentions to be growing apologies i wouldnt be oweing broken hearts they wouldnt be showing goddess tears they wouldnt be flowing its her trust i shouldnt have broken but i know through pain we're growing, but it aint ever gonna be the same

The consequences are on my mind, I'll learn from my mistakes I won't remain blind, my true intentions will stay kind

Looking back now at how the past is different, just another iteration of the same event, all the hearts and minds that i broke and bent, all the ignorant mistakes i made with good intent, i wasnt trying to hurt you i was just trying to live, i know that love is infinite but our time gets spent, couldve moved slow instead i rushed right in, but i was following my heart and for that no regrets, i wish we cpuld go back to the way it was then, before i didnt tell you what i should have said, but to live in the past is to die in the present, and i cant change what happened so i'll spit to vent. I live on my path and i wont die in vain, in pursuit of my truth ive got knowledge to gain, and i hope you'll forgive me cant wait for that day, but i know it aint ever gonna be the same

The consequences are on my mind, I'll learn from my mistakes I won't remain blind, my true intentions will stay kind

I contemplate the consequences of the actions that i take but one can not extrapolate the constant that is fate. Actions have reactions, laws of physics say theyre equal, but this is love this isnt science and ive learned they dont equate. Im trying to stay positive but opposites attract i wont succumb to negativity i wont fill up with hate. I will practice patience, i will value my emotions, i will take care of this vessel wont forget to meditate. I will clear my conscience of the things i cant control, i will not spend my energy on things i know i cannot change, and i will stay persistent for my dreams ill manifest my lofty goals and if i know youre soul at all i'll trust you do the same, because tomorrow isnt guaranteed we dont know what the future holds, you told me youd be in it so in that im putting faith, soon ill wrap my arms around you, in my heart your hand ill hold, but i know it aint ever gonna be the same